Nothing -I don't share the secrets of other's or betray their trust.
And -I don't have any secrets of my own!!

Strangely -there is an opportunity right in front of me -yet I do not
know whether to take it or not?
For many years i waited for this chance-not for recognition, or rightful
kludos -but because other's were laying claim to my actions.
This was so injust that it troubled me deeply.
Now there is the avenue to prove myself and yet I am not sure if I will take it.

I am the unpaid "Brokovitch" of asbestos!

Guess this will sound a little strange -but until I was 8 years old,
I believed my parents were my true parents!
Oh ,and I also used to think thunder was cause by God moving
his tall boy (wardrobe) around!

The one and only gift I have ever given to myself was a fish!

He died recently and as I was compelled to make an entry on my blog
about it -so will not repeat it here!

My three daughters are spread out in the North and the West of Australia.
I miss them and my grandsons every single day and wish they lived closer.
But they are all doing so well with their work and their lives, that I cannot
not feel happy for them.
Although it will always be my dearest wish that they all will live closer
one day , when we can at least visit each other often.
As it is I have to have my plane fare and travel across the Country just to
see them -and no sooner than i have done so, I start fretting for them
all over again!
We talk weekly and email each other -but I never thought we would
be so far apart.
Of course I realise there are millions of people that are apart from
their loved ones too -but I cannot help but envy those who's families
live close and hope they realise how blessed they really are.

I'm afraid just writing this brings tears to my eyes!!!

I guess I have a number of distractions -pending on how
I am feeling and how badly I need to be distracted!

Usually it is coming on line and having the mental stimulation
and/or the company of other's.
This especially works when I am longing for some serious conversation
on the cause and issues I am involved with.

Or, I will go for a walk and if I really need to, go up my local
"mountain"(hill) -where I have a spot that I can be at one with
nature,with the trees, with the wind, with the clouds in the sky.

My other distraction is to read a book.This is for when I really
just don't want to think anymore and I can through myself into
a novel and forget the outside World for a bit.
Of course there are times when that just doesn't work and one
keep's re-reading the same lines over and over -but maybe that's
just the wrong choice of book!

Basically though, I would rather not call any of them favourites-
because I do prefer NOT to be distracted!!!

I am perplexed!
Not sure where I am supposed to be at -and not where I thought
I would be at-
but glad to be here anyway's!

Yesterday my beautiful Siamese Fighting Fish, Michael died.
He was Three and a Half years old, which I am told is a good age
for him to live.
But I was so sad ,as there was a time when he was all I could call a friend.
He was the only Christmas present I ever bought myself ,and for a long time
he was in a small bowl on my kitchen bench.
I had to handle him to clean his bowl and he became so tame that I could
pat him.
When I was sad, I would look in at him ,and he would swim to the side and
press his eyes up against the glass, back at me.
Then I put him in with other fish in the tank and he was fine, until
I got him a girlfriend -Monica.
That just did not work out ,and caused murder and mayhem in the fish tank!
The rainbow fish got stroppy and had a fight with Michael, who ended up
with half a tail for the last 9 months of his life -and Monica hid and shunned him.
When I got up yesterday morning -he was nose down in the bottom of the tank.
I am very sad- as I loved him very much.
I miss you Michael -you were very special to me.

Trying to put the World together, to inspire others towards creating the
path of peace.
And on a personal level -dealing with the comedy of actions that have
impeeded me!!

To be NO WAR -there would have to be a dedicated committment from
every soul in the World, to make and keep the PEACE.
War has NEVER been the answer and if we, as a species do not
ackowledge that ,there may one day not BE a World.

So we need to WAKE UP -STAND UP  and realise that our selfish needs
are nothing in comparision to the need for us ALL to reject war, in any form.
We,the masses, us, the little people still greatly out-number the rich,
the powerful, the greedy -and CAN out-vote them and hold them accountable.

To make those changes, we need COURAGE and UNITY.